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Thursday, January 31, 2013

Taylor Swift....

I was listening to the radio the other day when I was driving around and the DJ started to talk about Taylor Swift before he played one of her songs..

"Well, the latest thing in news says that Taylor Swift has completely given up on men. It's no surprise if you listen to her cover song, 'I Knew You Were Trouble', Taylor Swift has gone crazy over thinking men in general."

This man that was announcing revealed a secret that girls have been wondering for years. If Taylor Swift is over thinking men that must mean one thing... Men are simple? 

If I had a dollar for every time I heard a girl say, "But Honey... He's a guy!", I would be a freakin' millionaire. It blows my mind how we read stories and watch movies about men coming back from war in all their glory, sweeping the women off their feet, loving them in every way possible.... but now our excuse for them not texting us back, calling us, writing little love notes, being thoughtful is, "But Honey... He's a guy!".

Maybe it's not a big deal after all. We'll just keep watching our unrealistic romantic movies and dreaming about what's going to happen tomorrow, when it doesn't really happen.

This was a more ranty blog, but much needed. Nothing is really going on with me that I want to put out there for the whole world to know, but I would ask that you pray for me and my relationship with Maxwell. I love him to death and he's such a sweetheart.... I know you're waiting for a but... BUT there isn't one.... yet! :) I love you Maxwell!

Friday, January 25, 2013


It's amazing how I can go onto the insights on my blog and see how many people view my page and where they are reading it from! I have people from Alaska that read my blog! That's crazy! 

Today I want to talk to you about viewing... not just on Blogs, but in every aspect of life. 

As most of you know, I used to weigh a lot more then I do now... as a matter of fact 80 more pounds. It's been crazy living my life in a skinny body, I'm treated in a totally different way then I would have ever imagined. I remember getting my senior pictures done the summer before senior year and looking at the results. I dressed extra pretty that day and when I looked at the results I was so disappointed. My face was huge, my body was sloppy, and the clothes looked like rags just to cover the fat.

I remember the views that people would give me on a daily basis. I could read the comments going through their mind about how much I should change. Even when it came to my Facebook... I would get comments about how pretty I was, but I would never believe it. I would think to myself about how people were just trying to make me feel better about myself. 

I'm glad that I lost the weight because people look at me in a totally different light, they accept me from the beginning. The views are completely different, and it's still hard to take it all in.

I found myself having a complete emotional break down yesterday because I couldn't comprehend the meaning of love. My boyfriend tells me that he loves me, but I couldn't believe it because I didn't think I was truly worthy of it. 

Isn't that something that we face all the time? Are we really worthy of everything that we receive? Or do we just take it for granted? The views that we deal with on a daily basis on social networks or on real life affect us.. good and bad. 

But as I've shared with you before and what I'm coming to discover again... If we accept ourselves as God's original masterpiece and do HIS will, not ours... we will see the views in a totally different light. I hope that you take the time today to ask God what HIS will is for you in every aspect of your life. Even if that's not your thing... it's amazing the answers you'll get.... 


Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Slow Dancing...

I use to watch all those movie of the little daughters learning how to dance by standing on their dad's feet. The dad would smile and hug her bending down just to touch her waist. It's beautiful and marvelous. This is how the perfect family looks like. No fighting, arguing, homemade supper every night, honest conversations..... The. Perfect. Family.

Is that possible? I want to think that's what my family will be like when I get older, but then I remind myself of who I am. 

Do you ever get that overwhelming fear of messing up? It's almost like you think about your future and you can't see anything! In my faith I've learned to "not worry about tomorrow.." but isn't that what the world teaches us to do? We go to school to prepare for college, we go to college to learn about who we are going to become, we date to find our partner, we work to get higher and higher positions, we grow old in nursing homes to prepare for death.... 

One of my biggest fears when I was little was messing up death. I remember being in Sunday School thinking to myself about this perfect heaven. I was so scared that I was going to screw it up when I got there. I can't imagine going to Heaven and being a person with no more sin, no more desire, and no more bad thoughts... 

See? Even now I think about the future. 

Maybe we should start to look back on how God is working in our life and stop worrying about what God is going to do next. That would help us to put our trust and love in Him.


Friday, January 18, 2013

One more day....

I have had to opportunity to live for 7026 days, 4 hours, 5 minutes and 48 seconds. 

That's a LONG time. 

Sometimes I'll be in a class or looking at my watch thinking to myself about how long five minutes are, but when I look at this and think back on my life story... 7026 days doesn't seem like a long time. 

This life happens in the blink of an eye. We are given the opportunity to do so many things while we are on earth and we need to grasp it with all we have. 

This past Wednesday I went to a church event called Midweek. It was probably one of the most spirit-filled places that I've been at. I was really hesitant about going because I was planning on sleeping and getting work done, but I don't regret going at all. Most people say the spirit shows up most evidently during worship, but in this case... I saw him as soon as I walked in the door. The people there was so inspiring that it just allowed me to be a person that I hadn't been in a long time. 

After we sang a few songs, the leader lead us in a prayer about being an inspiration to people. I really started to think about the people that are in my life and how I was reacting around them. When I came to college I was still reading my Bible and being in constant prayer, but then I found that there were other "fun" things to do. I didn't like that side of my self. When I go around telling people that I'm a Christian and then constantly cuss, lie, lust, etc... I'm cheating myself of living my life to everything God wants it to be.

Are you living your days to the fullest?

"My ways are not your ways, My thoughts are not your thoughts."
~ Isaiah 55:8


Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Big Smile....

You know those moments that you have when you're so excited that you can't help but smile? 

It's those moments that make your heart beat extra fast, butterflies in your stomach, your legs start shaking, and your eyes are set on the prize. 

It's love. 

I have to admit that this semester looks to be a good one and I'm really excited about it! My schedule is laid out enough to give me breaks and sanity. I can't wait to get back in full swing again! I've really missed all of my Ozarks family. The last 33 days away have been a killer, but now that I'm here it's almost like I never left!

Thanks for being part of my life and giving me encouragement along the way. Without your love, my smile wouldn't exist. Continue to pray for me and my friends as we gain strength to get through the semester! 

Here we go....


Wednesday, January 2, 2013

January Second....

Well that's it. Christmas is over. New Years is over. Holidays. Done. 

That's how it works... right? 

I see people that keep posting on Facebook about how their New Year is starting off perfectly and they are changing so many things in their life! My question for them? Why did you wait until January 1st? It's a classic thing for all of us. We wait until something big is going to happen in our lives....

I'm going to lose weight to fit into my prom dress.
I'm going to quit smoking because my daughter has a baby in the house.
I'm tired of being sad. I'm going to be happy once I get to college.
I'll get better friends when I move away.
I'll give my life to God when I don't have anything left.

We have an excuse for changing when it comes to everything in our life! Why can't we just live life?!

I'm probably the worst person in the world when it comes to this topic because I used excuses all the time. The main reason why I lost all my weight wasn't for me at all. It was to impress everyone else. I wanted to be a show stopper for the whole world to see that I was worth one look. 

The reason why I called this Blog "January Second" is because it's the universal sign of giving up. We have either over analyzed our resolutions and given up, or convinced ourselves that we are perfect just the way we are. 

I have news for you. Yes, God loves you just the way you are, but HE wants you to be HIS original masterpiece. When we were created, we were created in HIS image. That's perfect. Something happens when we start to live in this imperfect world, we start to form into things that's not of God. We convince ourselves that we aren't beautiful, smart, worthwhile... nothing. YOU ARE MORE! God has a plan for you and your life. When you pray, instead of telling God what you are going to do to be more perfect, ask HIM to make you HIS original masterpiece.... again. You will see and feel God's presence in a whole new way!

And that... my friends... is what January Second is all about....


Now God has us where he wants us, with all the time in this world and the next to shower grace and kindness upon us in Christ Jesus. Saving is all his idea, and all his work. All we do is trust him enough to let him do it. It’s God’s gift from start to finish! We don’t play the major role. If we did, we’d probably go around bragging that we’d done the whole thing! No, we neither make nor save ourselves. God does both the making and saving. He creates each of us by Christ Jesus to join him in the work he does, the good work he has gotten ready for us to do, work we had better be doing. 
~Ephesians 2:7-10, The Message